Mask Off

Well, the after Holiday blues finally arrived because of a good dose of teen angst toward mom (me) to start it off. I love Motherhood, except for days like Monday. All the good psychologists say not to take it personally, but that is so much easier said than done.
I wish they understood the constant demand on me from every one of them and my husband. I get so tired of being the bad guy when they are stressed or mad about something totally different. This week I have been accused of being unloving, not understanding, hurtful (on purpose of course), and to be totally honest everything a good mother isn't. All this comes after breaking my neck for months to work and provide a good Christmas for them. From 1-100 I think my mom meter is on 5 right now.
So I'm tired, I know things will change and we will persevere and becoming a loving family once more, but it was rough on me this time. Also has something to do with worrying that my endrometriosis is returning after just having surgery last year.
I need to visit Fairyland right now. ;)